Hello there!

I have been catching up with life on the internet for last past hours and I am just shattered. So extremely tired. But I wanted to talk to you a bit about nothing and everything, you know. Just me rambling about life, my life and life all around.



I decided to make a free day for myself, much to the sadness of my darling since he has to study for his state exams on Tuesday. I do not have to. I should, but no real power is forcing me, even though there is a tiny soft voice in the back of my head, just waiting there like a small daemon, laughing and waiting for the time that comes, when he can tell me 'You should have studied that Saturday. That one you spent watching youtube. And that Thursday you spent reading books.'

Last few days I have read through two books. After handing in my masters thesis, 80 pages long, in two copies I had to go to work and then work on another two papers and after they were done I had an exam. And I just couldn't handle seeing computer open and working the day after my exam so I took Waiting for Doggo, and read through it. And it was completely awesome book for my state of mind. I bought it because they had it in store, and they never sell books but they had summer vacation themed sale that week and had books. I bough three. Waiting for Doggo was one of them and it is the perfect book for vacation. For that time, when you want to just read into a great book, not think about anything else, but still you don't want the book to be too tight. It's just a great relaxed book with an awesome story and it's easy to read.

The other one was Girl Online, and on the internet, everyone already heard about this one. I was not going to read it, because I just consider myself out of the audience the book was meant for. But then a newsletter from book shop came and they had the slovak translation there and I was like, that's cute, and started reading the piece they show you. Well that piece was the first two chapters and I read into it while learning for my exam and the day after it still bugged me and I was like alright, I need to read this book. And I did. I still consider myself out of the target audience, I think if I was 15-17 this would be an awesome book. The story is a bit too, I don't know I feel like I have read these stories, and wrote these stories when I was young too many times to not know how it will turn out. Still it surprised me. There were some good plot twist. And the writing was really good. I feel that as a holiday book this is an awesome one.

After the horrible week of eating pizza and fast food, I was happy to get back into healthy foods, but I kind of feel like I lost it and have to find it again. So I am on my way to be healthy again. I started exercising after few weeks again. I feel completely horrible, I have to tell you. I have issues with my poor stomach after these weeks, and it just does not feel good to be this lazy and weak again. So I started exercising, been jumping on jump rope and then some workout for muscles. And it's a great feeling I must tell you.

I have started going to work again, and it's really good. I am one of those people who love their job and I just can't get over how awesome it is. I am just incredibly happy that I decided to go to the uni I decided to go and then decided to look for a job at the right time, so that these awesome people hired me. I just can't wait for working full time. Even though I am going to miss those day, when I woke up and did nothing but sew. And I made some awesome dresses and shirts etc. I am gonna miss those days, when I was just home alone at my parents house and could do nothing for a week than just sit behind my sewing machines.

Then again I still have weekends, even though the number of free weekend is rapidly disappearing as we make plans. And I have so many new fabrics that I have to get through. I am looking forward to them.

I kind of don't know what else to write. I don't even know if you all are going to read this far. I just wanted to share some of my thoughts and see where this gets. But if you got up here, to the end, please share how are you. I would love to get to know you a bit more. I will be posting again, really soon. I am slowly getting back into shape and in a bit of time I will get back to blogging and vlogging again. I have some plans, but I have to prepare a lot for them, so cross fingers;).

Don't think binary.
Whitelilit

Hello there darlings and loved ones.

I haven't posted in a while and it bugs me. But right now, my life consists of big word, tight deadlines and high hopes and evening frustration. Also bitten nails and greasy hair. Lovely image isn't it?

One month from now it is, maybe even few days less I will be officially an engineer and a full time working girl. It sounds strange. One month from now I will have this school finished and done and I will be extremely happy about it. Don't get confused. Uni is hard as hell. But it is worth it.

I am now at the stage when my life ends after a certain date. For me that date is this thursday and after that there will be some kind of mid life and after my finals, completely new world unravels. I am so looking forward to it. I will buy a really comfortable chair, that kind you can get outside and sunbathe in the garden. That kind you can get your feet up and you can adjust the way that the back goes so that you are sitting at one point and laying at another. And I will take that outside fancy chair to my husbands house and during weekends I will do nothing but lay on that chair and read books.

I already have one of those fancy chairs at home, that is why I only need one. That is the life I am picturing will happen. Also I will come home from work every day and there will be no more working, no more studying, no more deadlines. I can do what ever I eant with those few hours in the evening. I can clean the house. I can cook something. I can bake a cake. I can read a book. A can watch TV. Or I can go to sleep. That is what I can do with all that spare time that I will hve in the future. Also I can sew. Or if I have too much work I could just stay at work at work till late. Because I would not have to do anything else.

And I am so looking forward to that. If you go to university and work at the same time you know what I am talking about. My life right now is a set of deadlines. I have to fit work and school together with something called life and people. Luckily my idea of people is just me and my husband, because we do not need anyone else, and I am extremely happy that we are at this stage right now because I could not afford anything else.

As this all ends, I am thinking about all I have been through, and even though there is a lot of nights I had to work through and parties I missed because of school, I would never take it back. I am just hopefull I will never ever have to go through this experience again. One assignment I had I realized day before I was supposed to present it that I am not going to make it in time. So I coded all day and all night. Went to sleep at 3.50 to wake up at 4.30 and got to train. I coded through the train ride and after I got to my flat I continued to work. I had the presentation at 5 PM and I managed to make it work. I got 9.5/10 point for that assignment.

When we were in the first year we had this assignment to create a pdf file in LaTeX and submit it through some ftp place we had to change something there for it to be visible to other people. The night it was due, we had to turn it in until midnight, me and my roommate decided to celebrate something and got really drunk. I finished that assignment and handed it in, but than I got 0 points because the teacher could not find the file anywhere.

One year during the night that the clock is changing, this was in winter, it was moving backward I was coding and coding and it was two o'clock, than 2.50 AM and than it was two o'clock again and I had gone to sleep at around 5 am and done so much that night.

When I was in second year, I had this subject, functional and logical programming, and it was known to be really hard subject. It really was one of the worst things I got through. There was only about 13 people that got the courage to go through it. And we did not know how many points we got for our assignments until the last weeks of semester. And I was loosing all my hopes that i would get through that subject, because the test were really hard and I knew I did not do good. But I did not give up, I worked hard and finally got points, got enough to go to final exam and got the best C I have ever gotten.

Once we had a final exam and we didn't know how many points we got through semester. And you have to get certain amount to be able to attend final. We got our points about an hour before that exam.

When we were in first year I was feeling as if I was 15 because I had a really bad hair day, so my roommate and I decided to celebrate that and wrote some friend and gone out. We were meeting and starting and midnight, finished up at around 7 in the morning.

I could go on for a long time, but I guess you are not really interested. I just have all these feelings about ending school and looking forward to the rest of my life that I just wanted to share some of them with you. Also I wanted to say a huge thank you for everyone that has crossed fingers for me, because it was looking really really dark in certain point, but right now it's all good and I am able to hand in my final thesis this thursday even though it is not 100 percent great but never mind. I will finish this school and that is what matters.

Don't ever think binary.
Whitelilit

P.S. If there are millions of mistakes and errors in this one, I am sorry but it is late and I have no strength in me to go through this again and read it one more time. Count with me. The last month and then I can get back to blogging.

P.S.2. There are some weird fighting cats outside. We don't have a cat. They seem really angry,